Kiss fear goodbye

太多 - 陳綺貞 listen

喜歡一個人孤獨的時刻
但不能喜歡太多
在地鐵站或美術館
孤獨像睡眠一樣鍡養我

以永無止盡的墬落
需要音樂取暖
喜歡一個人孤獨的時刻
但不能喜歡太多

喜歡一個喝著紅酒的女孩
在下雨音樂奏起的時候
把她送上鐵塔給全世界的人寫明信片
像一隻鳥在最高的地方　歌聲嘹亮
喜歡一個喝著紅酒的女孩
但不能喜歡太多

喜歡一個陽光照射的角落
但不能喜歡太多
是幼稚園的小朋友
笑聲像睡眠一樣打擾我

我們輕輕的揮一揮手
凝結照片的傷口
我喜歡一個陽光照射的角落
但不能喜歡太多

喜歡一個人孤獨的時刻
但不能喜歡　太多


Love to be alone. Loneliness is safe. Time is stopped when no one is around. Only me and myself. Only fear is hunting me. Only me is shrinking.

No, He's here too. He's always with me.

I told Him thousand times that I wanna stop the fear controlling me. My life is paralyzed. I stop painting for years. It was the best thing I enjoyed before. I stop enjoying photo-taking and writing lyrics too. The girl in the mirror, who are you?

Don't know when my fear began. But for sure I'm the one who created it.

"Your fear is a part of you. So kicking it is like kicking yourself.
You created it. Almost like kicking something you gave birth to.
You created it for a reason. It’s useful to find out what that is.
To protect you from stuff that is dangerous and bad for you. That’s a very legitimate reason.
Right now this protection mechanism isn’t working. Because this fear is paralyzing you instead of protecting you.
It’s not working because your fear — aka your desire to keep yourself safe — is preventing you from moving forward on the things you truly want to do. Exactly.
Instead of kicking fear, you can dissolve it. It can kick back, but it can’t dissolve *you*.
The only way to get the fear to dissolve is to interact with it. Just like you, it wants to be noticed and cared for.
Your fear needs to know that you are taking steps to keep yourself safe. So give it some reassurance."

(To read more: http://www.fluentself.com/blog/habits/talking-truth-to-fear/)

Thanks to the writer Havi. Let me know there are hundred of people who feel just like me. And they can step forward, so do I.

OK, fear, thank you for protecting me from harm. It's time for you to retire. There will be no war. Go home.

God, I know You will give me power to do everything.

Let my life starts again at this second.